Monday, August 31, 2015

Long Time No Chat

Hey Loves,

Its been way too long since I've updated this blog! I thought I would fill you in on all the juicy details and catch up....... So It's been a little over a year since I've updated this.  Crazy how time flies! Well as you know I was dating this older man for several years. That was a great learning experience. I was so consumed with the sex industry (porn and escorting) that I had lost sight of who I really was. So I had taken some time out of the industry and came back better then ever. Well fast forward to the last year we spent half of it in couples counseling because we were having major issues in our relationship. I didn't want to stop doing porn and he was proving more and more to be a closet case. So we eventually broke it off and I can honestly say that it was one of the happiest moments that I had in a long time. I got closure and was ready to move on with my life. Not too long after that I had opened myself up to start seeing this guy who just kinda came out of left field. For any of you follow my social media (instagram/ twitter) have seen him! I also rescued another lil pup. she is a Corgi, Chihuahua mix. Cutest lil thing EVER!!!! I've also moved out of Hollywood and into the Valley. I'm officially a valley girl lol. Other then that I am working on putting my own porn site together and will be getting that up and running for you guys soon! I am also offering skype sessions and acesss to my snapchat. So you'll definitely be seeing more of me very soon.

I just want you guys to know I appreciate all the love support and loyalty! I swear I have some of the best supporters.


My obsession

This is a topic that I never really talk about but here goes.... Ever since I was 11yrs old I have been obsessed with this one guy. I guess you could say he was my first crush. He was 7 years older then me so nothing ever happened not to mention he is straight. Growing up I would see him at family events and I would always try to just be around him stare at him as he was so handsome. As I got older he would bring his girlfriends around and I would bring my boyfriends but I would always find myself going out of my way to have a conversation with him. It always took me a while to muster up the courage as the butterflies fluttered in my stomach and I would just be too nervous. Those small moments that we talked it felt as if it were just him and I. As I got older the admiration turned to lust and every time I would be around him it was hard to not try to flirt or stare and I would find myself avoiding him but wanting to be around him. He eventually got married and had kids now and I have an amazing boyfriend but the thought has always been there. What if I ever had a chance with him...... I know it's just a silly fantasy. Every now and then like last night I have a dream about him. It's all too real and throws me off. We are casually talking which turns into flirting. I express how much I've wanted nothing more then to make him mine. He kisses and embraces me and in that one moment I feel complete. Before I know it I am awake ..... Hot and bothered and it just throws off the rest of my day. I guess that's why I find myself writing about it. Something I couldn't shake. One day I'm sure this infatuation will fade but for now I will let it burn another day.